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Powerless again

InsaneXade's Life This time I admit it was my own fault. I kept putting off going down to heap until it was too late. I learned my lesson. I do not procrastinate any more. Business before pleasure all the time. I'm a licensed life insurance agent in Ohio but I just don't have a rich enough social circle to get anywhere in Primerica. One good sale and I would be out of this hole faster than you can say my name. I need to pay the amount in 30 days from 31st of July. But I just don't see that happening. No one seems to read this blog any more so I guess I'm just wasting wasting my time here. Oh well.


InsaneXade's Life I forgot about paying my hosting but not that many people visit my blog anymore so no one probably even noticed it was gone. Anyhow, I've been very busy trying to make my way in Primerica, but it's been a steep uphill climb with my bad girl past catching up to me. it's just a bunch of red tape to trim away. nothing much I can do about it, really. I must be patient and wait on the state to approve my background, that's all. Maybe one day I can make something with my old site. But right now I'm just too busy.

What the heck? The nerve of some people

InsaneXade's Life I've been looking for a career change, submitted my resume on As such I've been checking my email every day. Completely out of the blue this person contacts me and states that they want their link removed from my site, with links showing examples. This is because google seems to have taken offence to sites with little traffic and the web hosting geeks webaster feels it is hurting their site having such a poor site linking back. The links the person is pertaining to is in the footer and part of the theme writer's required disclaimer "i3Theme 1.6 is designed by N.Design Studio, customized by MangoOrangeâ„¢, supported by Web Hosting Geeks,
sponsored by Web Hosting Reviews & Free Coupons and Cheap Web Hosting. Ported to Serendipity by YellowLed."

Now, on most days I'm a nice girl so I went in to my blog's control panel and had a look around at the files. There wasn't a single file named "footer" or anything along that line. Now, I could have probably found it of course, I do dabble in web design, but I'm pressed for time. So, jut to make the webgeek happy I set it to the the default 2k11 template. This is only temporary until I get around to changing the files in it and clearing out the directory of all the old stuff. At least this one I am allowed to use without complaint no matter how unpopular my blog is. I'm not one to rant and rave but to take time out of my busy life just to do something so silly is annoying. I know one thing though, I will never ever visit their site, even if they were the last site on the planet. If they annoy me again I might get ticked off. And no one wants a ticked off InsaneXade----theres no telling what I'll do :-P

Hmm, looks like I need to look at my chatbox code and switch it to java. Something else to do today when I get off work.

I keep forgetting about this site for some reason

InsaneXade's Life I mean, I keep up on my deviant art but I just simply forget to update over here. Anyhow, I'll strive to be brief and to the point. Each paragraph will be about something that happened since Mom's accident.

First off, I got to meet my artist Wagaza for a fun filled aftwenoon thanks to Cheeko and we had a blast. For a full overview of that wonderful day see this Deviant Art post. I had so much fun with them that I keep smiling for no reason, despite it being weeks ago.

Okay, after that I decided to buy the Lindsey Stirling CD. She is a violinist that I modeled Vincent's playing after. I've always admired her, how she can move and play and dance while playing that I decided to include that in his spell playing. Anyhow, as I was listening to it nonstop for a few days I suddenly realized that I wanted to learn how to hold the bow, because I wanted to see how flexible Vincent should be while holding it. Could he could pluck the strings with one or 2 fingers, so I bought one on Amazon for $10. The more I listened the more I realized I wanted to do more than learn how to hold the bow. I wanted to play the violin too. I started saving up for a violin and doing more research.

I found and joined the chat (which is where I got my chat box from) Soon, I became a regular, learning about the violin by reading the chat. Eventually I joined and spoke up about my passion.They were very supportive and kind. So I finally told them more about myself and why I wanted to play. I was watching the bow tutorial and holding my new bow when I got bored and looked at the other videos on youtube. I watched as fiddlerman tested a violin out. The more I watched, the more I realized I had to have that violin. It's a fair starter one and it comes in my favorite shade of purple. So now I have a violin coming and can hardly wait to see it.

Well, that's it, I guess everything is up to date. Don't forget to comment in my box, or just say " Hji, I was here"

Mom totaled our new car

InsaneXade's Life Mom was in cruise control on a wet back road, she tapped the brakes and went flying out of control. It chills my blood to think of how close I came to losing my dear sweet mother. There was a bunch of ways this could gone wrong, she could have landed on the roof, she could have hit the bridge with her nose instead of the back driver wheel, a whole bunch of things.

I myself was on my way to pay off a quick cash loan when I got her panicked call. "Addie! I totaled the car, I'm in a creek on Newton Falls Bailey Rd! You need to get here now! Water is coming in FAST!"

I'm like, "Wait? What?!" She starts to repeat it it and I said, "Calm down, where are you," She repeats the road. I repeat it after her and tell her I'm on my way."

"Water coming in!" She shouts.

"Okay, now hang up and call 911, this is an emergency, they can get to you before I can. I'll be there soon!" I'm dashing out the door as I say this.

I throw my stuff in the car and take off like shot. I quickly, and numbly put the road in the GPS and off I go, it wanted to send me the long way so I took my way and called the Paper to see if I couldn't get a hint on which way she might be going. "Sally" answers and we try together to figure out which way she might be going as I tear through the back roads.

I come out on Newton Falls Bailey Rd. "I hear an ambulance!" I tell Sally.

"You do? where?"

"North!" I immediately turn that way then I jump as I see an ambulance tearing towards me, with a cop on its tail. "Oh, I turned the wrong way, thanks Sally, I'll keep you guys posted!"

I turn into the nearest driveway, wait for them to pass then tear off after them. I'm keeping perfect pace with them, and only slow down when the cop turns onto the road before the accident, I give him a terrified wave and continue coasting behind the ambulance. Once it stops, I stop too, slam the car in park then follow on foot. They try to stop me but I say that's my mom in my car and they let me past. I only relax slightly when I see mom is not in immediate danger of drowning then I start taking a few pics with my phone, move my main car out of the way and start watching.

Eventually they get her out and I almost cry with relief when I see her walking to safety, gripping the fireman firmly by the hand so she doesnt fall. Once she gets in the ambulance I find out what happened and start trying to figure out how to get my other car, I'm watching them start pulling it out when I see a newsman come up, and since I had nothing better to do I talk to him. I agree to an interview and tell him what Mom told me. When Boo, my brother in law by marriage tells me the car is a total loss I break down because we just got that car less than six weeks prior.

Thankfully I have full coverage on both vehicles and I was able to file a claim on it and get about 2k out of it, so far. I still have to talk to the adjuster but the appraiser told me a little under 2k because it's a salvage/junkyard title and I didn't notice it when I bought the car, but now I know better.

What follows are snapshots of the damage and the video links. I'll post updates as I get news.
This is the first picture of Mom's car that I took. This is from my phone. As you see she was quite lucky to have landed upright. It could have went wrong is so many ways. :S
The second picture I took, here a fireman is moving stuff from the passenger side so that mom can crawl out the window.

This was the back driver wheel, showing where she hit the bridge that spun her facing it in the creek.
Another view, detailing the damage to the fender area and how twisted the back tire was. The trailing arms were ripped out and it could not rotate much
Another view of the back tire. Here you can see how the axle tore away from the frame and part of the twisted frame
Yet another view, this one a closeup of the back axle with a marvelous view of the broken frame
A view from behind the car, this shows how the axle is at an angle. We just fixed the exhaust system, hanging the muffler up properly. The strap is still nice and shiny
The front end, looking under at the damaged from dragging it out. The Frame is twisted, and the radiator dropped some
The front end, see all the cracks and notice how the plate holder is warped and twisted? I had a lot of fun getting that plate off, it almost went pretzel on me

This is a snapshot of the news at noon video, here you can see the angle she landed, she started way around the corner and landed there. She went airborne, smashed the back tire and spun around to settle in the creek

Here is the video to the news clip that I have. It's in flash so give it a few minutes to load. it's a short video. I am trying to get a copy of my interview.
This is the youtube link to the unlisted video here
The orginal news brief is here

Stupid fickle upgrade!

InsaneXade's Life Well, I got an email today that there was an update to my blog so I of course upgraded only to find out that it completely broke my theme. So I had to find another one that I liked with 3 columns So if you're just checking to see if I posted that's why I changed themes. It's not too bad, all things considered but I did like the purple theme. Oh well, it was either switch or no blog :-P

Turns out Make human is the best way to go

InsaneXade's Life Make Human for blender is really awesome if you want to chop your modeling time in half. They are easy to pose and easy to customize once you get the hang of it. I made a complete model of Vincent in about two hours besides the ears. It's fully posable and easy to animate, has everything you need, even shape keys. If you want anatomically correct human based characters (even the stuff) then Make Human is an excellent choice. The only complaint I have is you must configure Blender to import but that's no big deal. User settings plugins to allow it and auto run python scripts. Between make human and Blender Cookie I'll have Vincent fully modeled and even clothed really soon and allow everyone to see him.

Wow. When it comes right down to it....

InsaneXade's Life I suddenly realize how much I actually ripped off the net and how much I bought legitimately from Daz Studio. Let me put it this way. I had over 250 gbs of various daz studio related stuff, including saves, in my old install of windows that I last used last year some time. Now, that I downloaded the Daz 3d install manager I find that I only have 26.2 gbs, without saves, without props that I made and I still have 476 things to download and install, but the download manager won't download any more due to the hard drive being too full.

My current main hard drive is only 300gb to begin with. It was supposed to be a temporary experiment of mine to see if I really needed half the things I had on my old hard drive and to see if that Windows was as messed up as I thought, which it was. So, now I am in the process of archiving my good, 1tb hard drive onto my external one after deleting all my backups on that external and ghosting this hard drive over to my older 1tb hard drive. For those who feel lost reading this don't worry, it makes sense to me. Consider it as backing up the old for file access, but not boot access and moving this hard drive over to the tb one :-P

All right, now why am I downloading Daz Studio again? Well, I got to thinking about how anatomically correct everything was and realized that in order to finish my Vincent model, and indeed, make more models I require an anatomically correct, fully posable and zoomable model. I will still use Blender I just want to have something that I can refer to on my terms, not a video's terms. I mean, did you ever try to do a 3d model of the head, fix it and then realize you have this one spot that looks off and no idea what to do with it? That's my problem with Vincent's head. I have this whole section on his head that I have no idea what to do with until I sit down and look at a true 3d anatomically correct model. The back of the head, behind his ears (without actually having the ears in place) is what I'm talking about. I also need to have a certain body type, the ectomorph body type, because he isn't supposed to have any fat on him for spoiler reason. Since Daz's Michael 4 has all kinds of morphs like that then it really is the best choice for me.

I'm also kind of thinking about Make Human again. They have a new modeler and I might consider adapting that to my use, or at least a sculpting base if I get disgusted at my attempts again. But he is doing pretty good currently so there's no telling what will happen. I'll probably keep everyone posted here.

3d Modeling again

InsaneXade's Life Well, there's a whole bunch of things going on right now, mom's dodge neon died, timing belt and transmission. And when the timing belt went I of course tried to restart her and bent the valves all to heck. So, the 2nd payday after my car was finally paid off I had to get a title loan to get mom her new sunfire pontiac. So this means that the leaky roof is once again put on hold, but my cousin offered to do it if we get the stuff so that's going to be a lot cheaper. It rains in my room so bad I had to build a rain water redirection system out my window. Money is so tight it "squees." But we'll get there sooner or later.

Because of all this and other stuff I dont feel like talking about I started to 3d model again. I decided to do Vincent, seen here I found the most amazing videos to help me out on Blender Cookie and I highly recommend the last one, even if you are not a 3d modeler because it is actually sketching/drawing but the tutorials are so amazing that they are incredibly useful. I was wondering why he looked off and after watching a few on the face I realized why. I jsutr wasn't forming him right. I fixed the nose and wow he looks better already.

Well, that's about it, I'm not writing or editing but I am sorta working on book related things to unwind after a very stressful month. If you wish to help out on the donations with my new donation link on the right sidebar. Who knows, I might even start webcomicking again.

WaW progress Update

Bk2 Without a Will Well, ive been very busy playing a game and just relaxing now I'm back to the book and hashing things out with a new reader that I met in the game. Chris is a wonderful reader and has really challenged me. I've added a couple new characters, fleshed out a bunch more and just basically started building without a will from the ground up. I've also worked a little on drawing again, I can do it but it hurts to do it for long so don't expect anything there. I thought I would let people know about it here, see ya later

Without a Will coming soon

Bk2 Without a Will I finally finished it, and Wazzy has the cover done. All that is needed is for Wazzy to go over the final half of the book and I can publish it. As you can see I updated the entry image to the left. I would have posted sooner but I kept forgetting to. I also started working on Insanity of Xade the book today, which reminded me to double check the spelling of Barkardo and prompted me to write down this blog entry. I decided to write out IoX then make it into a comic if I decide to go back to comicking. That way I have a final script and know beyond a shadow of a doubt what I will be wanting. Anyhow, here is My Deviant Art so you can see the cover all blown up. Stop by and tell us what you think :-)

In other news I have been playing a game called Champions Online. Look me up if you play @insanexade I've been bringing my comic characters to life and really fleshing out Frank. I think the game has really been a tool to help me develop IoX

My grammar stinks! But I'm going to get better fast.

InsaneXade's Life Best. Book. Ever! English Grammar For Dummies is the best investment for your lunch money you will ever find if you are a writer. Within minutes of reading some of it I realized why my book told a good story but did not do the story justice. My commas were misplaced. My quotes were misused. My descriptions were improperly describing the scenes. All in all I had run on sentences smashing against each other. Fragments were fragmenting the style. And commas in the wrong places, or not enough of them.

Wazzy had sent me a link to one of her stories and we came to a disagreement over the grammar. It soon came down to a mild argument. In my infinite wisdom, or just wanting to prove my point once and for all, I bought the grammar book. To my surprise we were both wrong yet also right on many accounts. I took a long look at my writing and immediately realized what I should do. I yanked the book off my virtual shelves. Then I posted a note saying I needed to revise and started to do so at once. Armed with the knowledge of the grammar book, I watched as my words flowed much easier. Then I examined Artemis Fowl, a book series that I really enjoy, and saw that Colfer uses the same rules.

All right, so I am working on that problem. What other problems with reading my second book did Wazzy have? The setting. Plain out right, the setting. I did not spend enough time setting up the world. Wazzy is a visionary. What I mean is, she literally sees what she is reading in her mind. What a gift she has! Oh if only I could do the same! Ahem, sorry. Anyway, She often found herself either imagining them talking in a blank void, or a fantastic setting punctuated by a character pulling out a cell phone. This would prove so jarring that it would completely spoil the image for her. Also she pointed out that Twilight has basically stolen my idea of sparkle use. What a let down that was. In the years since I first wrote the first crappy draft, back in 88, I used the word sparkle for the magic display. The magic style, is what I called it. So I also needed a new magic style.

So, this morning Mom and brainstormed. Now, the thing you must know to understand this is that the Xadian humans are descended from a group of hippies. As such, they only took 1960's technology with them. This means that although they have common things to us, Xadians took a completely different path from there. After a number of laughs, a lot of arguing, and some long silences of thought, Mom and I mashed out the fine details.

Now, as I am working on the first book, again, I am adding more flair to the world. They now wear tunics and 1960's style bell bottom pants. They also wear fantasy boots. The children enter information into datapads with keyboards, not notebook computers. Long hair is in style, many of the children wear headbands. Then there is this little oddball in the corner of the room. Aden doesnt wear loose clothes. His clothing is tight against his body. Loose clothes are easy prey for sharp unicorn teeth. Since he is using pen and paper, this sets him even further apart than he already is. BOOM! I have my setting. The rest is just grammar and actual story telling.

So, back to the drawing board. But this time with correct tools to do the job. I was trying to use a sledgehammer to pound in the nail. Although this is quicker, it is too rough and damages the wood around the nail. Now I have my normal little hammer. It's time to rebuild my house. Wish me luck.

Book one woes

bk1 Aden's Reluctant Wizardry After waiting for a while I got my newest copy of book one. I eagerly ripped it open and examined it's glossy cover. Pleased with it at last, I opened it. The copyright page was the very first page. Not a blank one like there should be, this means that it was on the very first page that you see opposite of the cover. Every single odd page was now an even page and vice versa. After I got over the shock, I thought it must have been a printing error and checked my book. It was a printing error, my own printing error. Somehow I deleted the first page. What a catastrophe! I set it down on my little printer and haven't touched it since. It's just too much for me right now. Maybe later I will read it, right now it's just collecting dust. I'll probably ebay it later when I'm rich and famous :-P

Anyhow, after brooding over it for a while I came up with a plan to prevent that in the future. Divide the pages up and reuse what I can. So I came home and promptly did that. Now there are three files per book, Blank, first six pages and the story. Naturally, the blank and story can be used for both paper and hardback books. This will make it much easier for me to edit it, actually. Now I am back to two copies of the book instead of three, much more manageable. Anyhow, that's it for today. See ya

Book Two is complete!

Bk2 Without a Will Now to go over it with a fine tooth comb and go over it about fifteen times XD

Thanks to Wazzy over on Deviant Art, who did my bubble child avatar I really fleshed out the main hero of the story, Vincent Pricer's appearance and added a few things to his personality to make him even better than before based on some concept work. Soon as we have something concrete I will show whatever readers I have here. As it stands he now has a rather flamboyant outfit suiting his dramatic personality. I have been sending Wazzy daily and sometimes twice a day notes and eagerly await her replies. We really fleshed out his hair style and made him drastically different from the first book's version. He appeared as a bit part in the first book and because I kind of felt so sorry him I explored him in the second book. Somehow, I have a feeling that this book will really take off and sell the first one. It really is my best piece of work. I am not slandering ARW or anything but this one actually seems to be equal if not better than the first book, thanks to wazzy. She is such an excellent artist that I might see if I can buy Cory's images for the interior cover image and have her redo the first book's cover if I like what she does for the second. I might even be able to redesign Aden's simple little country boy with a T-shirt and jeans and make a second edition. I've always found that I am somewhat lacking in the detail when it comes to colorful character descriptions. I guess it's just my simple little country girl personality surfacing. :-P